A WILD Devotional
I remember when I was 18, it was 1984. I wanted so badly to experience life and all God had for me and couldn’t even fathom it, though I tried. I remember imagining myself in each decade to come, how old would I be? Who would I marry? How many kids might I have? My desire was to always be pleasing in God’s sight and a valuable member of God’s family, always contributing to society. Somewhere in my early childhood there was a tormenting voice that constantly told me I never would. It was the liar’s voice, Satan’s. I wasn’t aware there was a liar whose main role was to kill, steal, and destroy; I had no clue that I could or should give him a verbal tongue lashing with the truths found in the Bible. Often I would cry out to God declaring what I wanted for my life, almost in a desperate plea, like a peasant begging a king for mercy. And so, my focus became my own performance and that began to define my worth.
I am now 51, amazed at the journey, wiser, stronger, braver and secure in my hope because of my walk with the Spirit of God who is my comforter, shepherd, counselor, teacher, confidant, refuge and friend. My ears are better receivers of his voice and I want to hear it more than ever before. At times I still wrestle with old lies.
For the last few days I have wrestled with anxiety over this blog. It would be public. What should I say? Would my story impact the lives of others? What if my grammar is incorrect? In sharing with a friend today, she “took me to church” as she reminded me that performance is not worship. God is so good to use other believers as His gentle reminder to refocus. Lord, forgive me for getting it twisted! My highest calling is not in what I do. It’s about who I am becoming. His first commandment (Exodus 20) is that I should have no other gods but him. He loves me unselfishly, unconditionally and all he asks of me is to love him and believe Him. If I’m in Him, nothing else can shake me. If He is my main obsession, everything else will fall into place.
Join me in this prayer:
Jesus, today I’m letting go of performance. Just as 1 Peter 5:7 (NLT) says, “I give all of my worries and cares to You, because You care about me.”
Sara is mom of three amazing, adult children, and one son-in-love, Brooke, age 27 (and Zack), Moriah, 25 and Landon, 22. Sara has been married to John for 31 adventurous and miraculous years. It is their desire to use their history, milestones and miracles to encourage young adults and married couples in their journey with each other and Jesus. Sara grew up in a relatively conservative background as a pastor’s daughter. In the last six years Jesus and the Spirit of God have blown her away with new revelations and surprises. Look for Sara (and John) at the Agoura/Oak Park campus where you’ll usually find them greeting at the door.